Lord, where are you now? I can’t find you!
And I can’t go on by myself
I looked in the mirror, trying to see you
But all I saw was myself
I’m tired of human emotions
All I want in your peace
But I’ve lost the will to pursue you
So please, come chase after me
You said you’d never leave a sheep behind
So I know you wouldn’t leave me
I give you my sorrows, and all my grief
Because you can bear my pain
Your ways, O Lord, they confuse me!
I just can’t figure you out
You say when I’m weak, then I’m strongest
I can’t fathom your unfailing love
I’m holding onto something tightly
I don’t want to give up control
You ask me to give it over
It will hurt, but you already know
Steer me and give me direction!
I don’t know where to go!
And dry these tears as you lead me
The reasons, you already know
Lord, I still struggle to praise you
And deep inside, it still hurts
But now I can feel you around me
I’m not alone anymore.
After I wrote this, I decided to read a "legit" Psalm... so my Bible flipped open to Psalm 13. Check it out. It's a Psalm of sorrow. It's actually a lot like mine... and I found that SO comforting. Psalm 13 was written by David... a man after God's own heart. He was so wise, and loved by God... yet, he still had moments of overwhelming sorrow. Prayer day came at the perfect time for me, and I feel so refreshed. Refreshed from the presence of the Lord.