My spot has been called poetic. I have pictures from my travels on my walls... pictures that have been colored for me... Christmas lights strung about... lots of pillows... a candle warmer... and a coffee pot. I tend to have my deepest thoughts in this setting. I suppose it may be the atmosphere.
That, however, has nothing to do with what I decided to write about.
Emotions are funny things, huh? I am mostly thinking about my crying. We watch a movie in ICS (my missions class) that has the least bit of emotion... I'm crying. Someone tells me a sad story... I'm crying. I watch a sad movie (LIKE TOY STORY 3...?!?!?!)... I'm crying. It seems like I'm always crying. Why did God make me so sensitive? Why do I have so much compassion? Why is it a gift that I want to give back to him?
Because I can't see how it's a gift.
I took my strength finders test, and one of my top 5 is empathy.
I have a very vivid imagination. When I hear of the pain someone has gone through, I imagine exactly what it would have been like. That's why I cringe and ask myself why I'm going into Psychology. Can I help anyone when I'm crying because I'M broken over THEIR pain???
And... I am driven to answer yes. God has given me the gift of empathy and compassion for a reason. Right now, I view it as a burden. A burden to feel other's pain. Thankfully, I don't carry other people's hurt and pain like I used to.
I am actually typing this through tears... not for myself... but for a friend that called me late in the night to talk something through. I wish I could give magic answers and help, but I just can't.
Lord, please help my appreciation for this gift to grow, and please help me to understand why you have given it to me.
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Hi! Glad to stop by and getting to know you. Lately I have started crying in my prayer time and apparently for no reason. I believe it is called the "burden for the souls". I have heard people say, it is a gift of the Holy Spirit. Soon after the prayer time I will be happy as usual.
Please leave all things at His feet so that you don't carry the burden alone. He has already taken care of all things we worry about.
May the good Lord continue to use you for his glory, though thru' tears, it is for the joy of others - I am sure your friends feel special as they've got someone who feels their pain and cries listening to their stories.
It's all for the good. So stay focused in the Lord!
BTW, care for some Coffee with Jesus?!
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